Monday, October 27, 2014

My last random thoughts

My due date is in 2 days! Wow, the time has come. Any day now we will meet Benson.  I am so excited!!
I have had many sleepless nights lately. Besides the usual, tossing and turning, 5 times a night bathroom breaks, Charlie Horses, Acid reflux and hip pain, I have a hard time going to sleep, because I can't turn off my mind! I go to bed at 10:30 and don't fall asleep until 12:30.
What's on my mind?
*Labor. will everything go ok? can I get through it?
*My house. It's a  disaster, and I can't seem to keep on top of it. my kids are always one step ahead of me. I know that when the baby comes, my life/routine will come crashing down, so I really need to get things clean and organized now, so my life isn't as crazy. I also would like to Labor at home for as long as possible. That means, my family and Doula will be here, and I need my house to look half way decent.
*How will Eliza be? She is so needy, and also in the terrible two's. will it be worse when the baby comes?
*post Partum. Will I survive? I know I will, but I dread it.
*what day will I go into labor? will I be here for Halloween? I hope so.
*who will watch my kids? I am sure it will all work out.
*will his head stay in a down position? I don't want a C-section
*will he have reflux, and colic? will he sleep better then the other kids?
*will he be good at nursing?
*can I handle this??? 
*will Robby ever pick his middle name?

I just have floods of questions and thoughts.

Thursday, September 25, 2014

Post Partum

One big reason it was hard to decided to get pregnant again, wasn't being pregnant, wasn't labor, it was Post Partum.
I am so excited to meet and hold Benson; but I am dreading, more then dreading post partum.
Post Partum depression is so hard! I am really hoping that because I am now taking Zoloft, it will help with Post Partum. But I am not getting my hopes up.
Trying to adjust to a another child and baby is really hard for me. It takes me longer than most to get it down.
oh and sleepless nights, Colic, reflux and all. 
I am praying for a baby that does not have reflux and who will actually sleep through the night before 9 months of age would be wonderful. But again I am not getting your hopes up. Why would this baby be any different then the first 4? 
Miracles do happen though.
Oh not to mention the bleeding, the mounds of flab on my belly, and just feeling ill, as your body tries to get back to prepregnancy.

I have roughly 5 weeks left, and I have been thinking about this a lot. I wish these thoughts weren't taking away from my excitement.

Sunday, September 21, 2014

W-Y-A-T-T'-S

Robby-
Hard working is what comes to mind when I think of Robby.  Working full time with ACF West, then working part time in the evening at the Gym, Then of course family life. Also he is training for a fight in 4 weeks. He also just helped lay flooring at our Family cabin. poor guy, needs to rest!

Kaycee-
Large and slow moving is what comes to mind.  I am 34 1/2 weeks pregnant. I am feeling it. discomfort and pain is setting in. If I do heavy cleaning or any type of work out, I can expect Braxton Hicks contractions that will come every 5 minutes, for hours. anywhere from 2-7 hours,  with cramping and pressure. So my doctor would like me to take it easy for the next 3 weeks. I've never experienced groin discomfort as I am this pregnancy. Fatigue right now, is crazy! I am tired all the time! Hot! always crazy hot! But even though I am uncomfortable, I love 3rd trimester pregnancy. It's exciting, special, and feeling him move is the best. I have learned to just try and enjoy pregnancy because it's over before you know it; and there is something about being pregnant, that is like nothing else. So I am in no hurry, just relishing in the last month of pregnancy.
I am getting back into the swing of school for the kids and homework. So far so good.
ready for cooler temps, but not ready for winter.

Abbey-
A lot like her mom. that's what comes to my mind. In some ways it's not a good thing.  I can see that she has a little of my anxiety problems. Luckily not as bad as me.
I know as a youngster my mom had to deal with me being sassy, pestering, and if I didn't get my way, I would beg my mom. She is now doing this. plus very emotional if she doesn't get her way. BUT the good news is, she is starting to realize that when she listens and doesn't back talk, she has a happier mom and gets more privileges. So she has been trying harder.
she started going to activity days at church. she has been to 1 so far and really enjoyed it.
School has been good.
Abbey is so tender hearted and caring.
Abbey is still my little helper.
She really wants to be in gymnastics. Hopefully she can some day soon. But my first priority is getting her into swim lessons.

Jaden-
Night and day, are the words that come to mind.  The old Jaden cried all the time, anger issues, didn't listen, or help around the house, and shy.
The new Jaden: Huge helper. Hard hard worker! just like his dad. I haven't seen a kid work as hard as him. Anger issues have become so much better. He is more happy go lucky.  He helps Robby and I around the house all the time. He is actually really good at cleaning. AND he has really come out of his shell.
Now if we could get him to treat Brigham better. But even though he doesn't always show his love toward his little brother, this weekend we saw how he really cares. we were down at our cabin, the boys were playing out in the tree's when they heard a loud crash of thunder. we heard the boys scream and Jaden came running through the trees. But what was amazing, he was carrying Brigham, trying to rescue Brigham.  Running as fast as he could, while carrying his brother to safety. If that didn't make my heart swell, I don't know what would.
He is enjoying school and doing good.
His long time goal is to live in a cabin in the Mountains. He plans on having a long beard and to wear a cowboy hat. for a living he want's to build houses.

Brigham-
Wild fits him most. He is always playing, and going, going, going! He doesn't like wearing shoes or shirts. We are working hard to teach him to do his chores, and to listen. It's a struggle.
Cuddly also fits him. He has always been my cuddly boy.
He use to be so out going and not shy at all. But just recently he is just so shy. Hopefully that will pass soon.
He loves, loves, loves preschool and wishes it was every day. He has made a new little friend. Every thing he makes in preschool, he cherishes it.
trying to get him to sleep at night, is ridiculous!
He is a funny and his smile melts my heart.

Eliza-
sweet heart. she has a good heart. she is good at sharing, and helping around the house.
really likes to color, and read books. She loves all her siblings and want's to play with them all the time. She is funny! and likes to goof around and make us laugh.
loves princesses and girly clothes, and accessories.
She doesn't like her hair being done.  sadly.
She loves, loves, loves animals! especially dogs.
she is a cuddle bug! always wants to be held and cuddled
likes most foods. doesn't like water, and only wants milk or juice.
still struggles many nights with really bad reflux.  It's scary. she chokes and is in pain.
has started her 2 year old tantrums, and crying fits.
Doesn't sleep well during the night or naps. It's really frustrating.
has the cutest deep little voice.

Benson-
wiggly!
He moves a lot. I love it!
He will be here in about 5 1/2 weeks
Everything is going well, he is doing good, as far as we know.
measuring right on.
all his siblings are SO excited to see him!!! Abbey and Jaden are always feeling my belly and asking how much longer.
Does not have a middle name yet, and hoping Robby will choose one soon.

Fredrick-
Our dog. The kids love him so much! we are so glad we decided to get him. The kids take care of him so well. He is a good, loveable, playful dog.
He loves to carry around stuff animals, usually sleeps with Abbey, and is an escape artist and we spend many days looking for him.

Tootsie-
Our cat. OLD. She is old, and her activity level shows it. She is still doing well health wise. especially being 16 years old.
she is so skinny, so boney. kinda gross.
really good with the kids. But Fred annoys her. I don't blame her though.
She still sleeps with Robby and I.

Sunday, September 7, 2014

Fun Filled and special 2 weeks

The first fun thing we did, was a birthday party for Abbey. She had some friends and cousins over.

 A few days later Abbey started 3rd grade. So far school is going really good, and she loves it.



Jaden started 1st grade and he really likes it, and really likes his teacher.

these 2 are just so cute, I had to snap a picture of them playing.
 over labor day weekend, we went to the family cabin down in Indian Ola, in Sanpete County. Abbey snuggling with her cousin Kherington.

 Bronson and Eliza watching Robby make tinfoil dinner.
 playing in the rocks is fun for all ages.
 hoola hooping barefoot on rocks. talent

 give them a bucket, rocks and odds and ends and it keeps the kids busy for hours.
 chit chatting and pulling faces  :-)

 Even Fred had fun playing with Chloe

 It was Abbey's 8th birthday the day we got to the cabin. so we had a little celebration.

 I shared my blow up mattress with my dear daughters. I was in the middle and quite squished.

 going to church down at the cabin

 We went to Spring City. My ancestors settled that town, that is now a historic town.  My Grandpa passed away 3 1/2 yrs ago, and is buried their. So we went to the cemetery.
 In Spring City they have a natural spring. We like to feel up water jugs and drink the cold pure water.





 My parents should be on the show 'Dooms day preppers'  they have every survival item and know how, on how to survive.  Right now they heated up coals and put them under a wire rack. then they put a cardboard box, wrapped in tinfoil over the rack of coals. and they baked brownies.

 keeping an eye on the cooking brownies. My mom even put a thermostat on the box, so that they can regulate the temp.


 taw-daw!!! brownies are done! it takes the same amount of time as a oven.




we went out to eat in a little town of Fairview at a café called home plate. We have gone to this café for probably 33 yrs. It was Memorial day and Brigham's 4th  birthday!
 Birthday Boy!
 Jaden wanted to wear my grandpa's cow boy hat and brigham foud one too and he was saying "yee haw"!

 We left the cabin and took Brigham and his 2 cousin, his age to Kangaroo zoo for his birthday





 Then we went to my sister's to celebrate his birthday. Cousin Hyrum wanted to be right next to him




 2 days later Brigham started Preschool. He loves it!!! He is sad that he doesn't go every day
 Little Miss Abbey decided to get baptized! We are so proud of her. She has been so excited for this day. She wanted to follow Jesus's example.

 Robby is all ready to baptize his baby girl.
 by the baptismal font.
 before the baptism the stake primary president had all the kids doing cartwheels and hand stands in their baptism clothes. it was fun. After Abbey came out of the water, she had the biggest smile, gave Robby a hug, and giggled. When she came to me she said "I did it!!! I can't believe I got baptized in front of all these people and I didn't have butterflies"! My grandma, and dad sang 'come follow me' at the baptism.

My family with Abbey after her  baptism.
 her great grandparents
 


What a wonderful 2 weeks we have had!